It seems I'm experiencing a loss of fatih.
A loss of believe in my own skill, my ability. I was not that happy with the last bear I made. and that bear like every bear i make had a lot of me in him and then suddenly to finish him and dislike him feel disheartening . And then a failed head, and trying to figure out where I went wrong, what to fix and feeling clueless and hopeless. the sneaking doubt " have I lost it" or " did i ever really have it" etc. the self doubt and worry.
that other people don't see what you're unhappy at some level doesn't help or change your mind.
You ( I) have to be happy or Happier.
i know everyone has these days or weeks, and I know I've had a lot, but it doesn't mean it's any easier each time.
i know there are lots of more things in the world though, it's just can be a bit disheartening.
Hope your creatings going well.
xo
PS sorry to be so somber.
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Oh Jess, I'm so sorry to hear that. Your bears are AMAZING, and I'm sure all the best crafters out there have the odd not-so-successful outcome.
If it helps, just believe that one 'failure' doesn't mean you've lost it in the slightest.
Big hugs, hope you can get things back on track soon xx
Don't apologise, Jess... the fact of the matter is that you know your own work best and other people don't see what you see. You have to be happy with your work or it will always niggle at you. It's niggled at me for ages when I've given something I wasn't entirely happy with. It's like an itch that doesn't go away.
Having said that, I love your bears so much and Colin was adorable. At the end of the day, though, it's totally your right to say 'He's not done. I'm not happy with him'. I hope you find a way to make him 'right' :) Kx
You are such a sweet soul. Don't be sorry for your feelings.
I think many have days like these, where they lose faith in themselves. I'm impressed that you can find the words to express how you feel. For now that you have...
We can all tell you how marvelous we think you are & how you really truly deserve the title of Royal Bear Maker!
Find your happiness dear lady, it must be hiding somewhere. Perhaps look in the wash basket, or behind the front door... have you checked the fridge?
P.S I may be needing to order another bear soon...
xxx
Oh it sounds like you are really feeling very yuck... and perhaps fatigued. Don't forget that you were very sick not long ago (and on your birthday - awful!) and that is going to affect your creativity.
For what its worth we LOVE Trevor and he is 100% perfect in our eyes.
Sweet Jess. You have always had 'it' and you always will. Sometimes it just has to go off on an unscheduled holiday. Or maybe it is off having a nana nap, completely unaware how disheartened it has made you. Breathe deep, sweetpea. Take some days to breathe calm. Maybe try something you have never tried before. You can trick it that way. Mine always comes back when I'm not looking.
I just want to say I think your creations are awesome and wonderful, so you certainly have "it". For real. I hope you feel at peace soon. x
aargh. This is an awful feeling to have. I know you will get through this - just keep going. Doing what you're doing. I haven't been happy this week with the making. I feel even worse putting it up on the blog. (i know its hard when people tell you things look great, but you don't like it yourself.) XXXXXXXJennie.
Jess, you know i love you AND your bears...You are my most favorite bear maker, because i can see and feel the love you put into them. Please don't be sad...You know, every once in a while i will paint a painting and not really like it. But i have a show come up and i decide i have extra space to fill so i will include it in the grouping. You know what? That painting is often one of the first paintings to sell. That just tells me that sometimes we are not the best judges of our own work, you know? Anyway...XXXOOOXXX
Courage! Faith will return!
Take a little brake just for yourself...
Goodluck!
Hugs,
Tatyana
Jess, I know just how you feel, it comes and goes but each time it goes, there is all that doubt -Will it ever come back? I like Tania's idea - go and do something completely different...think some new thoughts and before you kow it, it will sneak back in.
The girls above are right Jess; take a break. Make something else entirely or make nothing at all! Watch some West Wing reruns with a stockpile of diet coke & chillax. ;)
You totally have "it", promise.
I know this feeling well. Have you seen this?:
http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/elizabeth_gilbert_on_genius.html
It takes about 20 minutes to watch but I think you might like it.
xo
I have that feeling often and not just with craft, but other creative work like essay writing. And nothing anyone says helps. But I still want to say that your work is great. genius and genuine. take care
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